Emotional Month

Well I don`t know where to start.  This past month has been the worst month of my life.  Filled with death, car accident, trip to the emergency room and an emotional Christmas.  On November 24, 2012 my husband and I had our 3D ultrasound which was absolutely amazing!  By far, the most incredible view of our baby.  We were on cloud 9 for the rest of the day.

The next day, November 25, 2012, while out doing some Christmas shopping, my cell phone rings and it`s my mom.  I could tell in her voice that something was wrong.  My dad had passed away that morning, a heart attack at age 48.  I am very close with my dad and this news instantly broke my heart. I was so greatful that my husband was home and with me.  My parents live about a 9 hour drive away so we drove there that day.  After the funeral, my mom travelled back home with us to stay with us for a few weeks.  You would think that my dad passing away would be enough bad luck for a while, but no...

The day we were driving my mom back home, I decided that I wanted to sit in the back because I am getting far along in the pregnancy and was worried about the airbag if we got in in accident.  Well, while driving on the highway we were stopped at a red light and... BAMM! a car crashed into us from behind.  Me being pregnant became very scared and worried about the baby.  I left the scene and went straight to the emergency room at the hospital.  They checked me right away (urine test, fetal heart rate, and other tests).  My husband and my mom showed up quickly after.  We then went upstairs to the maternity area and was hooked up for a baby stress test.  We were there for 3 long hours.  All is fine with the baby and myself, but it was quite scary.

December 25, Christmas morning, being 1 month after the passing of my dad, came fast.  I just wanted to sleep the day away and skip Christmas this year.  But, I know my dad would not want us to sit around and be sad.  I came across this poem online and it helped me through the day.

What gets me through the days now is knowing that I have a precious baby boy growing big and strong in my belly.  He reminds me that his is there every 30 minutes with a lovely little kick.  Also we finally decided on a name for our little boy.

Our little boy will be named Mason.

To end this post on a happier note, we have finished our baby room, and we went with a safari theme. Here is a few picture:

My husband went back to work overseas on Boxing day so I have more time to try to keep up with my blog.

3D Ultrasound @ 26 weeks

We had our 3D ultrasound 2 weekends ago which was absolutely amazing and well worth the extra cash.  We had a 30 minute session which was recorded on a DVD for us to keep as well as 43 pictures on a CD.  Here are a few pictures:

He is just perfect! We can not wait until February to meet him.

There is not much of any update when it comes to the pregnancy, still taking the diclectin to help with the morning sickness and total weight gain so far is about 30 pounds.

Happy Halloween! 23 weeks

Here is my 23 week belly shot and Halloween costume as well.

Uppababy Vista Stroller

We have finally decided on the stroller that we are going to buy.  The name is Uppababy Vista.  Here is a picture:

The stroller comes with the basinet as well and can be switched easily with the seat.  The only thing is that the stroller does not come with a car seat but the stroller does have an adapter to attached a Peg Perego seat that we have decided on as well.  The stroller can be switched into so many positions and can be converted into a double when we have our next little one.

We are planning on getting this stroller in November when we are in Toronto for the baby show.  Has anyone heard anything (bad or good) about this stroller?  My husband and I are both quite tall and this stroller is suppose to have tall handles which is perfect for us.  We also live in a town where it snows (lots) half the year and we require a good solid, good wheeled stroller.  Again, I am a first time mom and have no experience with what to look for.  Any feedback is welcomed.

20 week belly :)

Holy crap it's been 20 weeks already! Only 20 more to go. Just a quick post to add a picture of my lovely 20 week bump.

I love food again!!!

Bring on the food!  I finally have an all the time appetite.  The last few days I have increased my meals, and I am feeling better and now want more food.  As far as I can remember I do not like beets.  At holiday meals my family would always have beets with their meals and I always said no.  The look and texture kind of turns me off and looks gross.  Today we had an office Thanksgiving lunch and everyone brought something in.  This morning as soon as I walked into the office I could smell something so yummy!!  What was it? Beets!  Someone had a slow cooker hooked up and I thought it was some sort of dessert cooking and when I asked what it was I was so surprised when she said beets.  

I had to wait 3 hours (a long time!) until our lunch and everything looked so yummy!  When the time came, I tried the beets and HOLY CRAP were they ever good!  I don't know if that is the pregnancy or not, but the erge to want to eat the beets was insane! I ate quite a few.  

After eating the beets, my co workers (who all know I am pregnant) tell me that I should not be worried if I start to pee red/pink.  What the heck! I have not had any spotting at all this pregnancy so I am happy they warned me.  If I started to pee red the next few days I would think that something was wrong and go to the hospital or something and look like a complete idiot once they realized that I am peeing red because of eating beets and not actually bleeding! lol.

Another meal that I am loving is chili!  I made a batch last night and had some before bed.  I woke up hungry at around 5am and went to the fridge to grab some juice and I saw the chili in the container.  Yup I had chili at 5am in bed! LOL!

If I keep eating like this, I am going to gain so much weight.  It is not fair that food tastes so good right now.

19 week Ultrasound

I had my first ultrasound today, around 19 weeks, and it was so excited!! I absolutely loved watching my little one move around.   She was able to tell me what the sex was, and it was VERY clear to me once I saw the bottom area.  Yes, I am having a very active baby BOY!  If you couldn't tell by the wallpaper change lol.  I saw his little heart flicker at a rate of 151 bpm.  The tech started out by taking about 30 minutes of pictures and measurements, all on a full bladder or water.  She had a hard time taking pics and measurements of his head because he kept putting his hands over his head. It was cute.

Then I was able to pee "a little but to leave some in"... ya, how the heck is that possible?? Then she did another ultrasound so that I could see everything moving and she showed the the by parts.  He was moving so much.  Partly my fault, because I know that he moves a lot when I eat chocolate or sweets so before my appointment I had a few Oreo cookies lol.  At one point his head was looking down and we were looking at the top of his head, and he moved his head up and looked straight at us, you could clear as day see his eyes (the outline anyways).  It was so neat to see.  I can't wait until the next time I see him move around.

Movement Update!!

This weekend I started to feel the baby move from the outside, once I felt it the first time I couldn't stop feeling my tummy all weekend to feel a kick again.  I felt it quite a few times, it was amazing!

Here is a picture of my baby boy!

Is it just me or his he squished in there?  I also have a picture of his foot, it is pretty clear.  So after work i stopped by at Zellers and got a few boy clothes and a blue picture frame for my ultrasound pictures.  After seeing him move around on the screen, it all feels so real now and I can not wait to meet my little boy in person! I love him already! Ah stupid hormones... now I have tears :) lol.

16/17 Week Update

My very first ultrasound is in 2 weeks, on October 1.  Unfortunately my husband is still away for work and will not be there with me, but I am still very excited!  At first we did not want to find out the sex of the baby, but lately the more I think about it, we both DO want to find out the sex of the baby.  They say that the mother usually has a gut feeling of what she is having, but me... not a clue.  The only thing I am feeling is that it is TWINS!  That is my gut feeling.  I am very excited to find out the gender of our baby.  Right now, I am have been calling the baby "he" when I talk about it.  But I don't know if that's because I think it's a boy or because part of me is wanting a girl but I don't want to jinx it.  We will find out October 1st!

I am finally having more energy these day and I love it.  I bought some prenatal yoga dvds online and I finally had energy to try them out.  Man am I out of shape! lol.  I couldn't even finish half the workout.  I was tired right away.  I usually work out often, I am always in sports but I have been so... lazy the last few months.  But the stretches in the yoga killed me! I was so sore the next day after the workout.

OMG! so I wanted to blog about how I think I am finally feeling the baby move inside of me (first time last night at bed time) I forgot until now, when I felt it again as I am typing! Holy Cow it is so neat!  This is my first pregnancy so I could be wrong.  But this is what it feels like... little bubble popping.  I just ate a piece of chocolate (Toblerone bar) about 15 mins ago.  I am taking that as a sign that the baby likes chocolate so I should eat more! lol.  Is 16/17 weeks too early to feel that? Am I going crazy?

Weight Gain:   So far as of today, my total weight gain is 4 pounds!! I am so happy that the scale is going up finally.  In the morning, I dont look pregnant at all, but at the end of the day I sure do.  I am only comfortable in my maternity pants or my size up pants from a few years ago before I lost weight.

Symptoms:  Hiccups all the time!  Puke free for 1.5 weeks! YAY!

I am currently using BioOil every night on my belly which seems to helps with the itchiness.  Another thing I noticed recently is pain in my belly.  I usually sit on my couch sideways and have the laptop on the spot beside me and I hunch over and to type and what not, but now i get a pain in my side belly area.  Kind of a pulling feeling, not too sure what it is.

I am very happy that I am now enjoying my pregnancy.  I just wish that my husband/best friend was here to enjoy it with me and share my cravings, because we both know he would love that lol.  :)

Diclectin

We had our first midwife appointment last week, and it went awesome!  I love having a midwife, she took her time and explained everything.  She also gave me a prescription for Diclectin, which is for morning sickness and nausea for pregnant women.  I took the first pill Saturday afternoon, then another 2 before bed and I slept great that night.  I even slept in until 10am, then I woke up made french toast then went back to bed.  I slept most of the day and the next.  I have no got sick at all since last week! I am finally keeping all my meals down and gaining weight.  Diclectin works great, only bad thing is that it makes me very sleepy.

Also, I can finally eat salad again.  That makes me happy because I was worried that i was going to be eating unhealthy for 9 months.

My first ultrasound is booked for October 1, and at that time I will be around 18 weeks.  I wonder if they can tell if we are having a boy or girl at that time.  At least I will know if there is one or two growing inside me at that time.  We also have a 3D ultrasound booked out of town for November 24, which is when my husband will be back home.  He left for work last Sunday and is due back home around the first week of November.

I have become less stressed out about the pregnancy since I can find the baby's heartrate every other day now.  I love having a home doppler, best investment so far.

2 more weeks until I can see our baby for the first time!!

Midwife!! 15 weeks

Today I got a call from a midwife that I have been on a waiting list for over 2 months! A spot opened up and I now have a midwife. :) I am so happy And relieved to have a midwife now. I have an appointment with her next thursday.

Okay, so I am now 15 weeks and the morning sickness seems to have gone down a little. I still get nauseous some mornings and after dinner. Dinner is still a challenge I can't eat much. I have not been working out or even walking at all in the last few weeks. I did order a few prenatal yoga DVD on line today. I also have a hard time sleeping at night this week.

Also today we announced our pregnancy on Facebook. We added the picture below (or above I'm on my cell and not sure where the pic goes).

Heartrate @ 13ish weeks

Well it has been 3 weeks since my last post, and not much has changed.  Still feel nauseous most days.  The worst is between lunch and bedtime.  Still not eating healthy.  I eat a lot of little fruit juice gummies after every meal pretty much.  Oh and we went on vacation to my parents house last week and my dad loves to cook.  I started to get an appetite back and was sure I gained about 5 pounds in that week.  I am used to weighing myself every morning same time, and last week i had no scale.  So when i returned home I weighed myself and gained nothing.  Not sure if it is because I am going to the bathroom (#2 sorry TMI) a few times a day now or not but I feel like I should be gaining or showing by now.  I am still very tired all the time.

On another note, I bought a fetal doppler a few months ago (can't remember if I posted about it already).  I have been able to hear the heartrate but could never get a number on the screen.  Well today DH and I finally saw the number on the doppler a few times, the heartrate was so fast and I LOVED hearing it.  Today, at 13ish weeks the rate was 163 bpm.

Another 4 weeks until my next appointment and hopefully we will schedule an ultrasound then.  I am getting very impatient.   I know I am forgetting stuff, but I am ready for bed.

10 weeks

This is just a quick update. I have not been feeling well at all the last few weeks. Eating is the biggest challenge so far. Well keeping it settled is the challenging part. No cravings but a lot of food really turn me off now. I have to eat very small meals that is the trick for me. My meals are pretty much peanut butter English muffin for breakfast and cherios for a snack. PB&J sandwich for lunch and some crackers in the afternoon snack. Supper is cheese and crackers or mashed potatoes mixed with sweet potatoes. I stick with the same foods pretty much thinking maybe my body will get used to them and stop throwing it up.
I had my first parental this week all that happened was a pap test. That was it.
My weight went down since my last appointment down 2 pounds.

Still no heart rate or ultrasound and my next appointment is not until September 17. I am really stressing out about this pregnancy with my appointments being so far apart.

Well that's all for now I am so tired and ready for bed

Oh and my husband is coming home this weekend and I am so excited to see him.

6 Weeks 2 Days Update

Today is 6 weeks 2 days based on ovulation date.  This week so far has been... alright.  Have not got sick yet this week (YAY!).  I have been very tired, but have been having a hard time sleeping at night.  That makes for a long day at work on a few hours of sleep.  So far the biggest struggle I am having is drinking enough water in the day.  I know that I need to drink at least 6-8 glasses a day to stay hydrated but it is difficult.  During the day at work I can drink 2 full bottes of water (500 mL each).  Drinking that much has me going to the washroom every 30 mins, and it is getting annoying!  I drink another 2 big glasses at home after work and that is all I can do.  Hiccups is another thing I have most of the day, and sometimes it leads me to almost puking, but I can stop it.


That is all I can remember, my brain is only half there lately.  I am off to bed now.  Maybe when I wake up tomorrow, it will be end of July :)

Pass the salt please

I had a good day today.  Felt great all day, and not once did I feel sick.  I think I finally figured out the right foods to eat.  Since middle last week, I have been having Mr. Noodles for lunch almost everyday because it makes me feel full and I can keep it down so I am stinking with the same food.  As well, as soon as I get up I have to get up out of bed and eat breakfast right away.  Breakfast has been 12 grain bagel with cream cheese.  Another thing that I have been eating quite a few of is pickles.  I don't know if it's a craving or just that it seems to be the only thing that doesn't leave a gross taste in my mouth after eating it.

So with the 4-6 pickles a day plus the Mr. Noodles, I realized there is a heck of a lot of sodium in my daily meals which for me means bloating and weight gain.  I have slowly put on weight (around 8-10 pounds) since the winter and I have always sucked in my stomach.  I do that everyday all day when I am out of my house.  Now, it kinds hurts when I suck in my stomach all day.  I am feeling cramps when I do that.  It is way too early to have a baby bump, but thats what this extra weight is looking like if I don't suck it in.

So my goal for the next week is to try out some different foods that contain less sodium and look for some good workout DVDs.  I am trying to find a good yoga one.

As for pregnancy symptoms, I have been feeling a lot better when it comes to the morning sickness.  As long as I make sure that I eat something every hour and a half at least.  Another thing is my back.  I find myself rubbing my lower back throughout the day while I'm at work.  Well thats pretty much it for this week.  Time is going by way too slow.

My first appointment

I had my first appointment this week on Wednesday.  I was a little shocked at how short it was.  I took a urine test and that was it.  Then the doctor asked me a few questions, and made sure I stopped taking any of the pills he prescribed to me the week before for being sick (which I did after my first BFP).  The whole conversation was no longer than 5 minutes.  That's it?!?  Then scheduled me for my next appointment for July 30 for blood work.  July 30?!?! that is almost 6 weeks away!  Is that normal? It seems very far away.

Friends of ours are currently expecting and they gave me contact information for the midwife that have.  I checked her out online, and she has hospital privileges.  Maybe I can get an ultrasound sooner with her?

Okay, so here are my symptoms this week, I think I am around 5 weeks:

• Still nauseous, not as bad as last week though.  I am eating this week though but not lots.  I managed to gain 2 or 3 pounds back from the 8 that I lost last week when I was sick.  When I get up in the morning I go straight for the crackers, before I do anything.  That helps for a few hours.  But at 3pm so far all week the dizziness and nausea kick in.  Again eating crackers keeps me from vomiting at work.
• Tired.  After work I am so tired I take a nap when i get home at 5pm.  I also played soccer on Tuesday night 9-10:30 and it killed me. I asked to only play half the game but it took everything I had.  I was so tired the next day and had a headache because of it I think.
• Sore boobs.  Only realized how sore my boobs were tonight.  I realized that I shouldn't be playing both soccer and baseball each 2 or 3 times a week because my body seems to be having a hard enough time with the pregnancy so I decided not to play baseball anymore.  I play first base and I get balls wiped at me pretty good, and my luck now that I'm pregnant I will miss one and take it in the gut.  So anyways about my boobs, I told my team tonight that I was pregnant and decided not to keep playing, and they all gave me hugs and agreed.  Those hugs hurt!  Thats when I realized how sore my boobs are.  
• Cramping on and off.
• Back is sore. 

So now that I am officially a few days late, I find myself going to the bathroom more just to make sure. Usually, around day 29 of my cycle I would never wear light coloured pants to work or outside because AF would show with no warning and very strong.  I would also wear a panti liner around those days as well just in case.  Well... today I wore light beige capris to work today, and boy was I nervous.  And of course AF did not show, so I was happy.

Next thing to look forward to is the heartbeat, hopefully the next few weeks go by fast.

My lines are looking great 13dpo

I took this test this morning before work and I took this picture at the 5 minute point. I can't tell the difference between the control line and the test line. Darker than before that's for sure. I called my doctor today and made an appointment for this Wednesday :)

And He's Off... :(

Today was harder than most Goodbye Days.  When I dropped my husband off at the airport today it was harder to say bye than the usual.  I am so scared to do this all on my own for 6 weeks.  With him being gone, it's all up to me now to keep our baby healthy now.  Part of me is super excited, but part of me feels like I am not pregnant.  I do not want to get my hopes up until I hear a heartbeat.  I have not been keeping track of my temps because they were low for a few days and it just stressed me out.  I still take my temp some mornings when I feel like I slept enough and it is around 97.7 which is low for me. Also my cervix has been low/medium and medium/hard this last week.  Should it not be high and soft?

On another note, had my first soccer game of this season tonight (it was pouring rain) and got a soccer ball in the gut!  I instantly put my hands on my stomach and I was scared.  No one knows im pregnant but after that I talked to another player who was pregnant during last season.  She found out she was pregnant when she was 7 weeks along and continued to play until she was around 10 weeks.  I am going to try to play for a few more weeks unless my doctor says not to.

I will be taking another test tomorrow morning (FRER) to see if the line is any darker.  Should it be darker after 2 days?  I guess I will find out tomorrow.

11DPO Test

Here is my test from yesterday. I am planning to take another FRER test tomorrow to see if the line gets darker.

Pregnancy Test

I just woke up, and took a clear blue digital, and ...

I was too excited to write a long blog and leave the pic for the end.

Here is how my week went.  The being sick part led to me not eating for 4 days.  Then i was sent to the hospital and was hooked up to some IV's, migraine pain killer, nausea helper, and the big bag of liquid (I think it is water/salt to get food in my stomach).  That took a few hours.  We mentioned that we were TTC and that I could be pregnant (would have been 8DPO) so they took a pregnancy test and I didn't see the girl again.  I assumed it was negative since they didn't tell us anything.  Oh I forgot I took a HPT at home the same day as the hospital in the AM and I didn't see a line.  But I had a feeling I was pregnant.

This morning, first time in a week I didn't get sick right away.  So I quietly went to the bathroom and used the digi test.  It appeared within a minute.  So much for waiting until Father's Day and surprising my husband, lol.  As soon as Pregnant came up, I ran into the bedroom and woke him up.  Now I have the sudden urge to eat and get healthy for the baby.  AHHH!! I am soooo excited!

Quick Update. Sick as a dog.

So I had my doctors appointment last Thursday, all went well.  I should get the results back in a few weeks.  Still had my headache on Thursday as well.  Then woke up Friday morning and the headache was a little worse.  Went to work ate lots (my coworkers brought in treats for my birthday (Turned 25 on Sunday), still had the headache Friday afternoon.  Came home from work had a shower and went to bed. I took 2 advil during the day as well.  We order delivery for supper Friday night, I had a panzerotti and right away I knew it wasn't selting right in my stomach.  Soon after then when we went to bed, I puked up my dinner.  Sorry for the TMI.  Still had the headache as well.  Woke up Saturday morning and puked right away.  It was a good thing I have a garbage right beside my bed.  Was sick all day Saturday, and Sunday.  Everything I tried to eat, it was not sitting well.  I even tried Pepto, that didn't work.  Then Today (Monday) I called in sick for work.  All I ate all weekend was maybe 4 soda crackers, apple sause, a freeze, and some potatoes.

So now that I have a doctor, who is a family doctor and gynecologist as well, I called and was able to get an appointment today.  My headache, turned out to be a migraine.  I knew that my headache was more painful then usual but didn't think anything of it.  This is my first migraine ever, and my body just wasn't able or strong enough to help with the migraine, which is why I was puking.  The doctor seemed more concerned that I had a migraine for 5 days, then the puking non stop since Friday night.  I guess it makes sense since the migraine was causing the puking.  He gave a prescription for something to relieve the migraine.  He then sent me to get a CT scan for my head just to make sure there is nothing wrong.  I have the CT scan next Monday.

I am currently 7DPO and and have been having a hard time sleeping.  My lower back on the left side is sore, and I can no longer sleep on it.  I have not been taking my temp this weekend since I have not been getting proper sleep.  DH thinks my being sick is morning sickness and thinks I am pregnant.  But I am not sure.  I did manage to eat a whole Tim Horton's chicken noodle soup for supper today, which is pretty good for me.  My husband is departing work overseas this Sunday.  Sunday is Father's day and also 13 DPO. I would love to get up Sunday take a test and get a BFP, then we can go for a nice lunch and celebrate before I drop him off at the airport at 4pm.  Just have to wait until Sunday now.

FF Confirmed Ovulation. 3DPO

My temp this morning was 97.8, and FF confirmed my ovulation day as CD 18.  CD 18 was the day I had my first positive OPK.  I am not sure that I ovulated that day because of my low temps afterwards.

I think that I ovulated on CD 19, but I am no expert on these charts.  I have had a headache for the past 2 days now.  I am happy that we are finally in the 2WW, the last week has gone by so slow.  My doctors appointment (pap) is in a few hours and I am nervous lol.  I really hope that everything is good.

Pap Test While Ovulating?

So I had my Doctor's meeting today.  I am all set up as a new patient.  I am going back tomorrow morning for a pap test.  Here is the problem... is it true that you should not have sex the night before a pap test?  We are BDing tonight to stay on track with our schedule.  My temp didn't spike this morning so I haven't ovulated yet, but what if it's tomorrow, and the doctor is ... well doing the pap test.  Should I cancel the appointment and reschedule is for next week?  I checked online but like always mixed opinions. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

Finally have a Doctor! Apt Tomorrow

I have been on a waiting list for a doctor for a few years, and tonight, out of the blue... I get a phone call from a Doctor's office here in town saying they have an opening!  I am going to their office tomorrow for a setup meeting and create a profile and stuff.  I am so excited to finally have a doctor.  And the timing is perfect!  Part of me is saying holy shit I am supposed to be ovulating today, and maybe this is a sign that the EGG MET THE SPERM today! lol

I am excited to have a checkup it has been years since my last pap test.  Which I know is bad, but I really hate them.  I hope I get a clean bill of health.  I also recently found out that midwifes are covered under OHIP here in Ontario.  I will be signing up with one as soon as I get the BPF.  I had a horrible day today which all started with a decaf coffee.  Had a headache at work all afternoon.  Came home and went to bed to take a nap before my 9:45 baseball game, then woke up to the phone call from the Doctor.  Now I am in a great mood :)

As for my TTC cycle, not much to update.  Still have not had a temp spike, but OPK was just as dark today as it was yesterday.  I just want to ovulate and be in the 2WW now.

Yay! Now it's positive

I am pretty sure today's test at the bottom is positive. :) I don't think I have ever had such a dark line before.

Positive opk!!

Just took this morning. Line is pretty dark :) On my way out for the day so this is just a quick update.

OPK Twice a Day?

Today is CD 16 and temp is still very low 96.8 this morning.  I did some more research about Preseed last night and read that women put the preseed in about 30 minutes prior to sex.  This I did not know I was supposed to do.  So we waited about 30-40 minutes until BD, and DH was still not able to finish.  BD was just not working out for us last night so we gave up.  :( I know that sperm can last for 3 days, but part of me just doesn't have faith in 3 day old sperm.  I realize that there is a lot of pressure to BD on a schedule, but if it doesn't work for us this cycle, then we have to wait again until August to try again.  I am a very impatient/determined person so this waiting and not being able to do anything is starting to get to me.

I took another OPK this morning and it was negative, but... the line was a little darker than yesterday, but how much longer can my temps stay this low?  Should I use an OPK twice a day?  If I only take one in the morning, is it possible that I could miss the LH surge in the afternoon or at night?  I think I might use one around supper time today and see what is shows.

I am trying really hard not to "obsess" about TTC, but all I can think about is babies and BD.  DH and I are our own best friends, we do everything together.  When he is gone overseas for work, I miss him so much that when he is home we spend all of our time together and usually alone.  We rarely go out, so my mind never leaves TTC.  We have a friend's stag and doe party tonight and I am looking forward to going out and seeing some friends, we both need a break.  Since only a few people know we are TTC (and no one at the party tonight knows) it will be a good for us to clear our minds of TTC and have fun.

Any ides on how I can reduce the stress of TTC and get my mind off of it?  Maybe I will learn how to sew or something?

Opk

Here is a pic of my opk. Note that the line appeared well after the time limit.

CD15 - Still no Positive OPK

Temp went down again today to 96.3.  I went through my past charts and I have never had a temp this low before.  My OPK is still negative though.  I forgot to take the OPK on CD 12 and 13, is it posible that I missed the surge.  We are doing the SMEPing this cycle but since I haven't had a positive OPK yet when should we start BDing for 3 days straight?  I am thinking we should start the 3 days in a row today even though the OPK was negative.  The other weird thing is that I usually have some sort of line on my OPK, but the ones from this week, the lines have been so faint that I can barely see it.  Here's is a pic of my chart:

Anyone else think I am ovulating today even though no EWCM... oh, I forgot to add that my CP last night was high soft open!  I am worried that if I am ovulating now I had no EWCM and isn't that bad?  Sperm can only survive for a few days in good CM right?  How long can they live in dry/creamy CM? I wish I didn't have to work today so we can BD lol.  I am nervous now that there are no sperm there when the egg is released. 

Any ideas??

CD 14 - Temp dip

Had a great sleep last night, I think I slept all night.  Got up went to the bathroom, actually remembered to pee in a cup to take my OPK this morning, but forgot to take my temp.  So I went back to take my temp and it was 96.6.  I woke up to a cold house, so I was kind of expecting a low temp.  Did not think it would be that low though, even after I got u walked to the bathroom and back it was still that low?

I have not had any EWCM yet this cycle, but I checked my CP last night before BD and I am pretty sure it was high medium/soft and open.  It wasn't as soft as it has been in the past but it was close.  Maybe I am ovulating today but I am not sure.  I will have to wait a few days to tell.

On another note, I have been thinking about starting a new blog.  A Pregnancy/Baby wish list blog.  There are a few things I have found online or seen in the mall and thought to myself, I am going to buy that when I am pregnant.  I do not want to forget anything so I thought I would start a blog about it and see if anyone else has used them, heard of them, and their opinions.  Here is the first thing that will be on my list:

A bando that goes over your jeans if you can't button them up, lol.  I think it's great, I want one now! 

Tanning and TTC

The weather here has been nice enough for shorts the last few weeks which means people see my white legs.  At the start of every summer I like to go for a few tans (tanning bed) to get some colour.  I went once last week then DH and I went on Saturday for another tan.  I only tan maybe once or twice a week for about a month.  Now I am wondering does tanning in a tanning bed effect TTC at all?  I am curious if it is bad for males because I read that heat is not good for the sperm, should I ask DH to stop tanning?  I googled it but mixed reviews.  It can lower sperm count according to some people.  Anyone else tan while TTC?

Preseed Not Working For Us, and Ovulating Early?

Today is CD 11 and according to our SMEP schedule we should have BD last night, but I was studying for my exam all night and was too tired when I finally went to bed.  Since it was only CD 10 last night I figured we still had a few days until I ovulated anyways.  When I woke up this morning, I took my temp right away and it was 96.8, which is my usual temp right before ovulation.  I was so upset when I realized that I might have missed our chance this month, even though we BD on CD 8.  So DH and I decided to quickly BD before my 9am exam lol.  He is a morning person, and I am a night person, but apparently sperm count is higher in the morning?  I decided to give the Preseed another chance, I used a smaller amount than last time, no bigger than a pea.  DH was not enjoying the BDing, it felt too wet to him (and was taking forever) sorry for the TMI.  I am honestly no longer a fan of Preseed and will not be using it again.

It is now 9pm on CD 11 and I have been having some pains in my right side on and off for about an hour.    I typically ovulate on CD 17, and I always have EWCM before ovulation.  So far this cycle I have not had any EWCM.  So again, I am not sure what is going on with my body.  I do feel a little more relaxed this cycle knowing that DH is here and we can actually BD around my fertile period.  I did take an OPK this morning, and it was negative.  This cycle is going by fast... looking forward to seeing if the cycle never ends :)

Stephanie

CD 8 - Let the SMEP begin!

Today is CD 8, first day of our SMEPing plan.  I also started using my OPK this morning as well since I have quite a few of them.  There was a faint line there, but negative for sure.  I am hoping that I ovulate a little earlier this cycle, maybe around CD 15ish, because I am impatient lol.  Found out today that DH is heading back overseas for work on June 19.  So we will definitely get to go through this whole cycle together.  Tonight when we BD we tried preseed for the first time... I am not sure if we are fans of it.  I do not think we needed it, but I wanted to try it anyways.  I used only a very little amount but it felt weird down there as if I used too much.  I have not had any EWCM so far this cycle so I am not in my fertile days I know that much, but practice makes perfect right? lol. I find it very odd that we are planning and scheduling sex according to my cycle, but we are willing to try the SMEP this cycle so we will see how it goes.

I wanted to track my CP everyday of this cycle but I find it so hard to tell recently.  I have not been adding it to FF as it feels like it is all over the place each day.  Temping I have been doing, most days.  I do find temping a little stressful though.  When I am sleeping I find myself looking at the clock every few hours so that I dont miss 6:50 when my alarm goes off and it's time to take my temp. I think that most stressful part is knowing that I have to have a solid 3 hour sleep before taking my temp.  I have not been sleeping well at night for the past few months.  I think since I stopped working out.  Sports are picking up now so I hope I can start to sleep well at night again.

On another note, I finished my first bottle of prenatal vitamins (100 pills) this week, so I hope that means that my body is ready for a baby now :)

CD 4 - Roller Coaster Weekend

I have had a very long weekend filled with an emotional roller coaster ride.  It all started with a stressful day at work on Friday.  Friday's at work for me are always a very busy day.  That is the day that all of my financial reports are due for work to be reviewed by the president.  Everyone else in my office gets to enjoy a Friday afternoon and look forward to the weekend, but I never do.  So anyways Friday was not going well for me, just felt like I was running out of time all day long.  Then at 5pm, when I was leaving work for the weekend I decided to check my facebook quickly as I walked to my vehicle. And what do I see... my cousin announces her pregnancy (12 weeks, 3 days).  I was happy for her, but for some reason I was so upset and had a few tears.  I felt like whoa hey isn't it my turn, she already has a little boy.  I know I shouldn't feel like that, but it is hard to see others get pregnant and not me.  I thought for sure that we timed it perfectly last cycle, but obviously it didn't work for us.

When I got home from work, my husband had a really good supper (pork tenderloin) ready on the table.  So we ate dinner and sat down to watch some tv together.  We decided to go to Toronto Saturday morning for some shopping so we went to bed early Friday so that we could get up really early to drive to Toronto.  At this point I was still only spotting very little before we went to bed that night.  Later that night, the AF cramps came so quickly and painful i couldn't sleep.  I tossed and turned for an hour then got up.  I find that if I sit up on the couch sometimes it relieves some of the pain, but that was no working.  Then I had the hottest bath ever and had some advil then got some sleep.  So that was how my Friday night went.  Then came Saturday morning... we did not leave early for Toronto since I was up all night, I slept in late.   On Saturday the temperature was supposed to be around 30 degrees C, so for the first time this year, I needed to take out my summer clothes.  That was a bad idea.

Last summer I got married so I worked out like crazy, had soccer twice a week, and baseball twice a week, and was on the treadmill everyday, so I obviously lost weight and was a size 6-8.  After a full time job and school work all winter and spring... I am no longer a size 6-8.  I am more like a 10 (tight) now.  So trying to fit into my summer clothes from last summer was very depressing.  I knew that I have been slacking in the workouts (more like not doing them at all), and eating un healthy, but I didn't realize how much my weight had changed until I tried on my summer clothes.  It took me about 2 hours to get dressed Saturday morning, and of course every outfit I tried on I would ask my husband if it made me look fat, and he would say no, but I knew he was lying.  So i ended up wearing black yoga pants (sweat pants capris) and a black long sleeve shirt.  Then we drove to Toronto, we always decided that since it took my so long to get dressed that we would get a hotel room in Toronto for the night because I hate to drive at night.  When we got to Toronto it was sooo hot, and me dressed in all black was even hotter.  So I decided to try on shorts and tank tops so that I could change.  That didn't not go well either.  Nothing was fitting well.  So we went into Lulu Lemon and I spent $150 on 1 workout tank top, a pair or shots and a headband.  That was all I bought that weekend pretty much.  We decided to go to Red Lobester for dinner.  I never drink, but i decided to order a Mango Mai tia, or whatever it is called, and I ate shrimp.

Well today is my first day of soccer practice and I am excited to start my workout for the summer.   Shoot, this post was long and now I am running late, lol.

Cd 2

Well the witch got me good this month. Had some bad cramps yesterday night and AF showed up same time. Was up all night with bad cramps. Had the hottest bath ever at midnight to try to knock me out so that I could sleep a little. Worked for a bit then started eating my multigrain tostitos chips and cranberry juice. Then I googled to see if someone found a cure for cramps yet... No such luck. Maybe tomorrow there will be a cure for it. New cycle anyways. Going to try really hard this whole cycle to get pregnant.

14 DPO... Still only spotting

I am still only spotting very little.  When I enter "spotting" in FF, it still does not give me a new cycle?  Should I enter it as light, so that my new cycle will start?  Now I just want to start another cycle so that I can count down to ovulation again.

Bloody nose for 2 days

So I'm at work but I have to post a quick update. Still no af not even when I wipe. However I have a bloody nose I had one yesterday morning as well lasted little over an hour or so. Now the same thing today. I never get bloody nose. Any ideas what is going with my body I am so confused.

CD 33 / 13 DPO **Update**

AF still not here!  I definitely ovulated on CD 20 (the day DH got home).  Here's a summary of my last two cycles:

Last cycle: 28 days, ovulated CD 17 with a luteal phase of 11 days
Cycle before last: 31 days, ovulated CD 17 with a luteal phase of 14 days

AF should be here tomorrow based on my ovulation day and luteal phase. This cycle feels so long. Oh and my temp went up .1 today to 97.5.  Which is still above my coverline (97.4).  I have been having the weirdest dreams the past few days.  In my dreams I get up and take my temp and go back to bed, and keep repeating that pattern throughout the night.  I am bad for hitting the snooze botton on the alarm so now I keep feeling like I have already taken my temp but really haven't, or have I?  I think it was a dream...

******UPDATE*****  So about 5 minutes after I posted this, I went to the bathroom and had a tiny light brown/redish spot on my panties :(  Sorry TMI.  When I wiped there was nothing and I checked my cervix and nothing.  So I guess this is the beginning of AF, I will find out in a few hours for sure.   :(

12DPO

So I went to the bathroom every hour at work checking to see if AF showed up... and nothing.  I checked my cervix after work, and it is high and firm, and no red/brown in my CM at all.   I have been having the pulling pains in my right side still, but no AF cramps yet.  If it wasn't for my low temps today and yesterday I would be a little excited right now.  But I'm pretty sure my thermometer sucks so ya never know.  I also have not ben sleeping at night the last week or so.  I get up every few hours. I am looking forward to tomorrows temp and see if AF shows up.

CD 32 / 12 DPO

I decided not to use my last FRER this week as my temp went down .1 to 97.4 today.  AF still has not shown her face yet.  I have looked at my past cycles and I am due for AF today based at my low temps.  Still no AF cramps this morning.  I have a feeling she will be here this afternoon some time.  I just want AF to get here and leave fast so we can try again.  This next cycle I am going to try to put as much info in FF as I can starting CD 1.  Hopefully I ovulated my normal CD 17, instead of 20 like this cycle.  that's 3 more days I have to wait lol.

11DPO Temp dip :(

I have no cramps this morning but when I woke up my temp was down to 97.5 which is below the coverline.  So I am now expecting AF to show up sometime today or first thing tomorrow.  I had a weird night last night while sleeping.   DH decided to turn the AC on for the first time this year so I went to bed freezing, and slept with my normal duvet didn't add another blanket or anything.  Around 2am I woke up sweating, I got up and splashed cold water on my face then back to bed.  That doesn't happen to often. I am always cold when I am home.  So now that I am pretty sure that AF is sitting at my door step ready for her visit, it is time to start planning our next cycle.  This will be our first TTC cycle that we will actually be planning and scheduling BD time, lol.  DH will be home for this whole cycle.  I have about 25 IC ovulation test strips and the preseed.  This cycle we will try the SMEP thing, and preseed as well.  I am still a little confused with the whole preseed stuff, what if we use too much?

I am excited to start our first good TTC cycle.  I might also try to drink green tea everyday.  When my temp dipped today I gave in and had a normal coffee this morning (not my decaf that I have been drinking).  Man was it ever good!   Well Im off for the day to try to kill the witch and stop her from visiting me for the rest of the year.  I can still try right?

CD 30, 10 DPO

So here is what I was thinking of today.  My last cycle was 28 days, and the cycle before that was 31 days.  So AF should be arriving any day.  My luteal phase is between around 12 days.  I really do think that I ovulated late this cycle (CD 20).  If I ovulated on CD 17 as per my normal pattern, my luteal phase would be over now and AF would have been here by now.  But she is no where close.  My lower back is still sore and my hips and back are itchy.  I hate waiting, I just want to POAS again lol.

Yesterday was Mother's day, and I went for dinner with my mom, my sister, gramma, aunt and her sister and their mom.  I was the only non mother :( and it was sure pointed out as well.  I really hope that yesterday was my last mother's day as a non mom.

2 more days until I take another test, if the witch stays away that is.

9DPO BFN

I bought 2 FRER last night and used one today with FMU, and BFN.  My lower back is so sore this morning.  I am sitting on the couch with the laptop watching tv, and I feel uncomfortable sitting here.  There was no line whatsoever on the FRER, either it's still early or I messed up my ovulation day.  Still not giving up until AF is here, but I cant help but lose a little hope after a BFN at 9DPO.  I will use the other test on wednesday (12DPO) if AF doesn't show up before that.

Also my cervix this morning was so high that I almost couldn't reach it, still firm though.

Ice cream and crushed Oreos

Ice cream and crushed oreos... that was my breakfast today.  I had a craving for an oreo cookie when I woke up this morning, which led to hmm... lets add ice cream lol.

Anyways today is 8DPO an my temp today was 98.5.  FF gave me an unfilled circle today as i took my temp around 8am instead of the normal 6:50 ish.  DH is away this weekend to visit his family and I am stayed back since my mom is here visiting.  She is staying at my sister's house this weekend so i have a free day today to just relax.  Right now I am catching up on my recorded birthing shows.  I will try to have a nap in a few hours then head out to see my family.  Tomorrow will be 9DPO and Mothers day, i would love to take a test tomorrow because I am so impatient. Part of me thinks that my delay in ovulation until DH was home was a sign that this cycle it was meant to happen.  I am trying to figure out what a "twinge" is.  I have been feeling this pulling feeling on my right side.  Not like a period cramp, but more like a pulling/stretching.

So my mom is here visiting for a couple weeks, and my sister (she knows that we are TTC) has been telling my mom no to come here and that she has to stay at my sister's house.  Well I found out today that my mom mentioned staying at my house for a weekend and my sister told her that we were TTC so she couldn't stay here. lol.  I found this out after my mom asked me if I wanted to go to my cousins house for dinner, which was a tuna casserole.  I dont know if anyone else TTC is avoiding fish and tuna, but I am.  So i told her that I couldn't make it because I was sick.  My mom asked if everything was okay and I was getting tongue tied and said ya I am fine I just was up all night with an upset stomach i ate a bag a chips last night that made my stomach upset.  Total lie.  And it got worse from there, lol.  So i had to tell her why i didn't want tuna because she's my mom and I havent seen her much since she has been her.  That is when she told me that she knew.  Her response to me not wanting tuna because we were in the 2WW was a big laugh, lol.  She went on to tell me that she had no problems getting pregnant, nor did my sister.  It happened right away for her.  I have an older sister, and had an older brother.

Get this... my brother was born June 3, 1986 and passed away(SIDS :(  ) September 3, 1986. (i think that was the date, if not close to it).  My parents way of coping with the death of their child was to plan for another one right away.  9 months later my due date was June 3, 1987, and they thought I was a boy.  Sure enough was born one week late (and a girl).  Long story short, both my sister and my mom  can apparently get pregnant very easily.  I hope that I am the same way.  I do not know too much about DH's family history with babies other than twins run in his family, and his brother has 3 kids (all within years).

Wow this is my longest blog post ever.  I am praying for that BFP this week.  If not this week then 4-5 weeks from now.

Temps are stressing me out

Today is 7DPO, and my temp is 97.7.  My last 2 cycles I have had temps around 98 the whole two weeks almost.  But this cycle they are all over the place after ovulation.  I am sure to take it at the same time everyday and I do enter it into my cell phone FF app right away.  The only thingI can think of is that I have not ben sleeping well this week.  I toss and turn all night.  Would that not make my temp go higher? I did some research on low temps after ovulation and some people take progesterone to help with it.  I may do some more research this weekend.  The only symptom i seem to be having is increased appetite and very tired due to not being able to sleep at night.  I am happy it's Friday and I can try to sleep in the next 2 days.

I think my thermometer sucks

Today is CD 25/5DPO and i took my temp this morning at 6:50am as I always do and it was 97.1.  So i double checked the number made sure I was looking at it right and yes it was 97.1.  So a few seconds later I checked again, thinking my temp should be the same, right?  No, it was 97.6.  So I checked again in a few seconds. 98.0 was my new temp.  Is that normal, or is my thermometer not working?  I was laying down the whole time so I wasn't walking around or anything.

On another note, I am trying to add my cm for everyday to FF, and yesterday i had yellow EWCM.  Does EWCM have to be clear?  What would I select at my CM option?

FF removed my crosshairs UPDATe

CD23 - Huge temp tip this morning 96.8 which was way under my coverline.  So now I am very confused.  I guess I havent ovulated yet.  My cervix this morning was firm, but still very high.  DH will be happy now we are good to TDT again without my being scared to screw anything up. lol  This is the weirdest cycle for me so far.  What could affect such a low temp drop if if I did ovulate 3 days ago?  I slept with the window open last night but I doubt that would affect it at all.

UPDATE
I checked my thermometer again after work and my temp was 98.6 this morning not 96.8. Ff gave we a ovulation day of Friday :) My thermometer keeps the last temp the next time I turn it on.

EWCM???

So we DTD 2 nights ago and yesterday i had some EWCM which I thought was semen, but I am still randomly having EWCM.  Am I right by thinking that it is just semen or could it really be EWCM, and I am still in my fertile period?  Is sex okay during the TWW? I don't want to screw anything up if i did ovulate.

FF confirmed Ovulation

Today is CD 22, after I added my temp, FF gave me an ovulation day of Thursday (CD 19).  How reliable is FF?  If I ovulated on Thursday, but still had a high, soft open cervix on friday night, is it possible that I ovulated on Friday but my temp started to increase?  I am now 3 DPO so I guess I will find out in 10 days.  This wait is killing me, lol. When are they going to create a HPT that we can use right away? lol

CD 21 or 1/2 DPO

Temp went up this morning to 98.5, big rise today.  I have been having on and off cramps all morning.  As well, cervix is now firm, closed and not as high as it was yesterday.  I really hope we made it just in time.  FF has not confirmed ovulation yet, but I think I am now in the TWW.  When i checked my cervix i noticed that there is something at the opening of my cervix, i noticed it a few weeks ago but thought nothing of it.  But now I am curious as to what it could be.  It doesn't feel like a bump, but more like the tip of a pen sticking out of the opening of my cervix.  Is that normal? 

CD 20 - PM. Cramps!

Well its about 10:40pm, DH is almost on his last flight until he finally makes it home. The last 20 minutes or so I have been having on and off cramps, which I am pretty sure is ovulation pains.  Feels the same as what i felt the last 2 cycles around ovulation anyways.  So do the pains mean that I am ovulating now? So tonight will be the first time we try Preseed as well.  I hope it works well, I am a little confused with the whole process but I will try it anyways.

Baby dust to everyone!!

CD20 - Cervical position

Today is CD 20 and this morning my temp did rise to 97.3 ( up from 96.6 yesterday).  My cervix seems to be very high, very soft and open.  I am not sure what the different CP mean, I find it all confusing.  DH was supposed to be here at 8pm tonight, but his flight was delayed until midnight now.  I am getting excited to see him, aslo feeling like its too late (to conceive this cycle).  DH has ben traveling for 2 days to get home, 4 flights and not much sleep.  I hope he has enough energy when he gets home tonight, LOL.  If we are going to catch the egg this cycle there is not time to wait. lol.

CD 19 - PM

Its around 9pm CD 19, and I still have not felt my usual ovulation pains.  My last 2 cycles I have felt sharp cramp like pains during ovulation, but nothing so far.  Just before lunch today i did start to feel dizzy at work, and that continued for the rest of the day.  After work I stopped by at Wendy's and got a chicken burger and fries, and a pop... and a chocolate frosty :) After eating all that I did feel better.  Then I had a hot bath.  I know hot baths are not good for people TTC, but I just needed one it is so relaxing.

CD 19 Temp still decreasing

Today is CD 19, and my temp went even lower this morning.  I have been taking my temp consistently at the same time all week, and it dropped from 96.8 to 96.6 his morning.  DH is due home tomorrow around 8pm.  I dont know, but I have a feeling luck is on my side this month.  Another thing, I had a lot of EWCM this morning and nothing yesterday.  Here is my chart:

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/3b68d7 

I hope this link works.

CD 17 (usual ovulation day for me)

Temp went up .3 today to 97.4 which is still a lot lower than my normal after ovulation temps.  On another note, DH's first flight was delayed 24 hours, so he has to change his other 3 flights because of that so I am not sure when he will be home now maybe Friday or Saturday.  I thought that Thursday was pushing my luck for this cycle, so Friday or Saturday is way too late.  Which is fine, because how my cycles work, hopefully we can have 1 actual cycle of TTC, then test 10 days after ovulation which would be my 25th birthday!  Still not giving up this month though.

CD 16

Temp dip today.  Yesterday it was 97.5, and this morning it was 97.1.  I did have some EWCM this afternoon.  I thought that the EWCM normally came before the big temp dip? Is that the normal pattern?  Maybe my temp will still stay low for 3 more days.  3 more days until HD is home! :)

CD 15 - NO EWCM

Well I have had a rough last couple of days.  Emotions are all over the place.  It started 2 days ago.  I totally bombed my exam, then work was crazy busy, then freaked out on DH for something stupid.  My temp went up yesterday (CD 14) then back down a bit this morning.  Still no EWCM though.  No ovulation pain yet either.  I went back and checked my last 2 cycles, and I always had EWCM 2 days before ovulation.  So I am thinking this is a good sign.  If I start to get EWCM even tomorrow, it usually lasts 2 days, then 2 days after that I will ovulate, which will work out fine.

DH home in 4 more days :)

CD 13 - No Ovulation yet :)

Today is CD 13, and took my temp this morning still low (around 97.5) which is normal for me before ovulation. CM is now creamy, but still not EWCM which is a great sign.  After I put in my temp, FF moved my predicted fertile and ovulation days back a few days! :)  May 3 (day DH is home) is now a part of the predicted ovulation days! I am so excited.  I am going to try not to stress out the next few days to screw it up at all.  I have to write an exam in about 2 hours that I have not studied for yet, so I might get stressed a little when I write the test, lol.

Surprise from my husband :)

Received a special delivery in my office today. DH sent flowers with a note saying "I love you and I miss you. See you soon" it made my day.

CD 11 - TTC... more like WTT

So DH and I work at the same company and today I noticed that he is due to go back to work May 28.  My fertile days are usually around the first of every month (CD 17).  I did get confirmation that he will be home next week on May 3 so I will most likely miss ovulation this cycle as well as next.  TTC does not seem to be going our way, is this a sign that we should not be TTC? We will still try as much as possible when he is home, but I feel like I am Waiting To Try (conceive) more than Trying To Conceive.  Due to the time change, I have not had a chance to talk to DH about the schedule, but i just needed to vent a little.

CD 10

Today is CD 10, and still no EWCM :) I am not using any OPK's this month, since it would kind of be a waste.  I am taking my temp every other day this cycle, but starting around CD 13 I will take my temp everyday.  Temping has been helpful the last 2 cycles so I will just use that to confirm ovulation and see how it goes.  Even if I ovulate on CD 18, and DH is only back on CD 19, is it even possible to get pregnant after the temp dip?  I also did not order any more IC pregnancy tests, so I wont be testing until at least 12 DPO as I will have to use FRER.  In February, I ordered 10 or 15 IC HPT, and used them all the first cycle! lol Won't do that again.  Finding IC online that will ship to Canada is not easy.  If anyone finds a good site, please let me know.  Well, time to get back to eating my bowl of ice cream lol.  I can't wait to be pregnant so that I can eat ice cream whenever I want and not feel guilty haha :)

CD7

Today is CD 7, DH is due home hopefully in 8-9 days.  That would make him here for CD 16ish and I am due to ovulate CD 14-16.  Cutting it close that's for sure.  As soon as his plane lands I will be speeding home to BD! lol  Would be nice if we can catch the egg this cycle.  I am really hoping that ovulation is delayed tis month by 1 or 2 days.  I wanted to finish my school work before I got pregnant, and I only have 5 courses left and I am done.  So I am excited about that.  Would be nice to enjoy a whole year off for maternity leave and not have to worry about school so I can focus on the baby.  I am still taking the prenatal pills, no longer feel sick all the time. I think that my body just had to get used to them.  The blue veins are still all over the place all the time.  Thats my only update, it has been a pretty boring last few months.

CD 1 - How can I delay O

So today is CD 1, and according to my cycle trend, i should be ovulating on April 30.  DH was scheduled to be back home on April 28, which would have worked out perfectly, but now he has been delayed a few days and wont be home until May 3 or 4.  Is there any natural ways to delay ovulation?  It just seems not fair to miss ovulation by only 1 day :(  DH will leave again for work around middle  to end of June, so  we can try next cycle i guess, but if that doesn't work then we wait until September.  The wait in between is just so long.

On another note, I started a new workout routine today.  The Insanity Workout, it is a DVD collection.  I might start a blog about how it goes and to keep track to help pass time from TTC.  I also want to take a picture of myself and to update so that I can see the changes and use it as motivation to keep workout out. How much can I workout when I do get pregnant?

So Nauseous :(

For the past week I have been nauseous all day.  Part of me wants to stop taking the prenatal vitamins, as I am pretty sure that is what is causing it.  Should I try to take a different brand? Or just stick with this one to let my body adjust.  If this is a preview of what pregnancy will be like for me, it will be a long 9 months.  But it will be worth all the pain.

Sharp Pains

So I am pretty sure that I am ovulating now lol.  I have been having the sharpest pains in my pelvic area for about 5 minutes.  I thin I recall having this same feeling last month when FF said I ovulated as well.  This pain sucks, I am in pain just sitting here on the couch as I type this.  I want to go have a very hot bath, but I have been reading that a very hot bath (that I usually have) is not all that great for my body.  Maybe I will go try a tea.

EWCM Ovulating early??

Today, CD 13 I had some EWCM, which means im close to ovulating.  I was really hoping that I would ovulate later, to push my next period back a bit.  I hope that I dont start my next cycle early as well, as hubby is only due to come home 30 days from today.  And for the first time, my cervix was super low this morning.  It has been pretty high for the last 30 days or so.  Now I know the difference between high and low cervix.  It is getting easier to track my cycle now.

Blue veins are making me crazy & BFN

So I am CD 10 now, and the blue veins are increasing.  They now connect from my boobs to my armpit and all the way down my side and around under my belly/lower abdomen area.   And a few going from my boobs down the front of my belly.  Just a few on the front though.  The place where I have them the most is my lower back.  Clear as day all over the place on my lower back.  I am starting to wonder if this is a side effect of the prenatal vitamins?

Took a clear blue digital yesterday after work, since I almost through up at work, i was curious, and it said Non pregnant.  After taking so many a few weeks ago, you would think that I would be fine and used to it. But seeing the words "Non Pregnant" come up after a few minutes made my heart sink.

Babies all around!

Seems like every show I watch lately someone is trying to get pregnant, pregnant, or has a baby.  It's all around me!

Weight Loss

Well TTC cycle one ended with a BFN.  Cycle #2 is a break for us since DH is out of the country.  Since we are taking a break from TTC this cycle, I cant get my mind of baby stuff.  I am not pregnant yet when I was at Zellers the the other day I was looking at baby clothes.  They are all so cute.  I should start saving up now.  Anyways since school work is not keeping my mind of of babies, I need to do something.  So I decided to try a weight loss.  I currently weight 163 a of today.  I would love to lose 10 pounds before getting pregnant and putting it all back on, lol.  I use a website and iphone app called MyFitnessPal to track all of my food and calories and it is very simple to use.  You can scan bar codes and it puts it in your food diary.  It's pretty neat.  During the week, I play volleyball 2 nights a week and will be playing soccer soon 2 nights a week when volleyball stops.  There is also a workout Wii game that I love, it's called Gold's Gym Cardio Workout.  Its a boxing workout.  I love it, its a full body workout.  We also have a treadmill and cross trainer in our house so I really have no excuse not to work out, lol.  I am hoping to loose 5 pounds a month if I really stay focussed and watch my eating and continuing to workout.

So my question is, how much can I workout when I do become pregnant?  How much weight will I gain?  Should I try to loose more than 10 pounds?  So many questions, and so much research to do.  Ahh I'm back to baby mind again.  Everything I talk about leads to that.  6-7 more weeks until we can try again! :)

Happy Birthday to my Husband

Today is my hubby's birthday.  Wishing him a very happy Birthday!  Maybe next year we will be celebrating his birthday with a little baby :)

Such a weird Cycle!

For as long as I can remember, during my period I eat all day everyday during my period.  A big bag of multigrain tostitos chips and cranberry juice is what I always crave during my period.  Along with any other kind of junk food we have in the house.  I also live close to a convenience store, so treats are just a quick walk away.  But this time... not hungry at all.  I think that TTC and the stress of it has completely changed my normal cycles.  I usually gain a few pounds during my period due to eating alot of bad food and lack of energy to work out.  I should have started TTC a few years ago lol.  I am curious to see how the rest of this cycle goes.

As well, I started spotting Thursday night, but it only got heavier today, so I am using today as CD1, not sure if that is correct.

CD 1 - New Cycle

Finally had my normal heavy period today, been a few hours of it, so I know it's here now.  The days of the light spotting are over.  Having painful low cramps like I usually do during my period.  Happy that it's here now I know for sure I am not pregnant, and I can stop wondering everyday.  Taking a break this cycle, as my husband is not back until May 1.  Which actually works out perfectly.  My next cycle should be starting around April 21, and ovulation around May 6.  I have the preseed already and will be trying the SMEP as well.  Going to try to eat a little healthier the next month as well.

Every Women's Body is Different

My cervix is very high and very soft.  The red bleeding I had first thing this morning that I assumed was my period.  I have been to the washroom about 3 times since then (I put a pantiliner on when I noticed the bright red) and there was nothing but very very light brown discharge or CM.  So I checked my cervix and it was hard to find it... it was so high and so soft.  I have been doing so much research the past few weeks about cycles and ovulation and symptoms, and CM and CP and I think I finally came to the conclusion that every women is different.  No 2 cycles or 2ww symptoms are the same.  I read about 2 people having the exact same symptoms, and one is pregnant and one isn't.

 I read about some people getting pregnant on their first cycle trying.  I too was wishful thinking.  And then there are couples who have been trying for 6 months, and 12 months, and 4 years.  To go through 4 years of trying must be hard on people.  But they still seem optimistic.  This is my first time trying and part of me thinks that I screwed it up.  I knew that sperm could only live for a few days but I thought hey it has happened before that got pregnant from 7 day old sperm.  I dont know how people that have been TCC for over a year get through it.  They must be strong people.  I feel bad for them.  Then again, if I got pregnant on my first cycle TTC, I would feel bad that it happened to me, and not to a couple who has been trying for so long :(  I have wanted a baby for a few years, but knew that the timing was not good, but if we started to try a few years ago maybe I would be a mom by now.  Wow I am very emotional today.  Marc has been gone for 3 weeks now an I miss him so much.

The Witch is here

She showed up this morning :( Taking a break this month since DH won't be home until may 1. Going to be a long wait. Now I can get back to my school work and stop googling everything lol

More Veins

Started to notice a lot more veins on my body as well.  Lots on my lower back and back of my thighs.  A few on my hips still and pelvic area.  Same ones on chest area.

13 DPO - Brown spotting

Woke up this morning expecting to see AF... but nothing.  Nothing at all.  Took another IC HPT with FMU, negative, white as can be.  All day today I have been going pee about every 30-60 mins.  Not usual for me when at work. Around 10am, I noticed some light brown CM, not even that I needed a pad or pantiliner for, just when I wiped.  Had that a few times throughout the day, only a tiny bit each time.  After work I POAS, an OPK, and the test line was darker than yesterdays.  Not as dark as the control like, maybe half way there.  AF due in 2/3 days unless she is slowly hear now.  Still having cramps only on my left side.  I just wanna know already :(

Tried to buy the Monitor

Wow... 5 minutes after I posted that I was back on the site ready to order.  The thing that stopped me... $90 shipping to Canada!! Are they crazy!  Guess I will keep searching for one.

12 DPO - spotting?

My period isn't due for 3 or 4 days, and earlier today I was feeling wet down there (like AF showed without warning)... and nothing at all.  Tonight when I was checking my cervix, and it seems a little lower then before, and soft.  As well, I had a little bit of blood in my CM, kind of bright in colour.  Not sure if AF really is coming or now.  Usually I can tell when AF is coming, like the night before or even a few hours before.  But off and on this week I have been feeling like she is coming and still not here, even though she is not due for a few more days.  Ah! I dont know what to think anymore.

On another note, someone on BabyandBump posted a link for fetal heart rate monitors. Price range between $40-$100 for the monitor.  They can hear the rate rate as early as 8 weeks.  I had one selected and proceeded to the checkout, then decided I should wait until I get a BFP.  But I still really want to get one.  I will probably order it on the weekend anyways, lol.

11dpo early wake up

So I tried all night to hold my pee so that this morning I could poas, but no, went pee early. About an hour later I started to feel really hungry, my stomach was getting sore. I tried to just sleep thru it, but I couldn't so I went and gabbed a yogurt and went back to bed. 10 mins later... Still hungry. So I had a big glass of chocolate milk, and then couldn't get back to bed to I turned the iPad on and started googling hpt. I am trying to learn more about evap lines. And looking at very faint lines on hot to see if I see what other people see. Then I decided to come and here and do a quick post. So hubby has been gone now for 2.5 weeks. Time is going by fast. And my school work... Well that's starting to collect dust :( lol. I just want to know if I'm pregnant or not, is that too much to ask for? Lol. I still have another 2 hours until my alarm goes off, which is temp time, but I don't think I will record my temp on FF for today since I have been up and drinking. Guess I will go look at more hpt pictures. :)

9DPO - BFN

Took another hpt this morning and BFN.  After work (5pm) I used an opt and got a light line.  I know it means nothing, but I just like to see a line :) lol  Had some cramps today, just like what I get before the witch arrives.  She isn't due until another week, but I think she might be on her way early.  I dont know what to think anymore.

And... BabyandBump website is not working and I am going through withdrawals from that site lol.  I guess I could do some school work.

HCG test strip?

So when I took my hpt strip this morning, I put the opk strip next to it to see where the line should be.  There was no line that I could see, but then I put the tests on there sides just to see if I could see something and I noticed that there was a pink spot on the side of the test strip where the the should be.  Im pretty sure its negative because I couldn't see a line on the top of the test but could it be that the line is so faint??? I have been googling it like crazy, and cant find an answer anywhere.  If anyone is reading this has ever read or seen this, please let me know I am going crazy.

POAS

Ahhh!! It's only 2:30 pm and I want to go to bed so that I can wake up in the morning and POAS!  :)

7DPO - Hungry!

So I had 2 toast around 9am with peanut butter like I do every morning.  Then around 10:30 I started to get hungry again! like for another meal, not just a snack.  So I decided not to have anything else and wait until at least noon to eat lunch.  10 minutes later I found myself on the couch with a bag of Double Stuffed Golden Oreos.... yup eating them (only 4 though).  And I am still hungry.  I had ordered pizza last night, ate half the pizza last night and the rest was for today.  It is now almost 11am, and I am very close to eating the pizza.  I am trying not to because if I am not pregnant I have no excuse for eating so much and no excuse for my weight gain lol.

CD 7 CM

This morning I planned on using a hpt and opk with fmu, however when I woke up I had to pee so bad there was no time to get the test strips.  So I went back to bed, and decided to test in a few hours.   The hpt was negative.  Although when people post pics online of there test strips and others say they see a line... I never do.  But the opk, there was a line.  Not a clear positive opk, but the line was pretty clear.  I know that ovulated 7 days ago as per FF and temp rising.  As well, yesterday during the day I was feeling "wet" down there like AF was showing up, but there was only little bit of creamy cm.  When I went to the bathroom this morning, I had tons of creamy cm, like hand lotion.  One more dy down.

6DO - Tired

It is currently 6:30 pm Friday night, and I am so tired.  I am ready for bed.  Seems like I can't get enough sleep this week.  My lower back is stil sore.  I want to have a very hot bath, but I know its bad to do now (If I m pregnant).  I haven't been working out at all this week, only my 20 minute walk at lunch.  I am watching an episode of A Baby Story on TLC lol.  I'm addicted I have about 45 episodes saved on my PVR.  I set it to record all of the episodes.  After this episode I'm heading to bed unless I fall asleep on the couch, then I'm POAS in the am!! lol Ya, I know it's still early.  But I just cant help myself  :)

6DPO - Temp rise, stuffy nose

I have been pretty good at taking my temp first thing in the morning for the last week and a bit.  The last 3 days, my temp (after ovulation) has been exactly 98.0, this morning it was 98.5.  So of course I have been googling that lol.  Mixed opinions about it.  Still trying not to get my hopes up as we only BD'd 7-8 days before ovulation, but I cant help but think that I am that one in a million that will get pregnant with 7day old sperm.  I did take a hpt this morning (I know, I know... too early) BFN.  I just couldn't wait.  Oh and I used one last night too... shortly after I posted on here saying that I would wait lol.  I am going to run out of test strips soon lol.   Also today and yesterday I have had a runny nose.  The TWW is toooo slow.

Implantation Pain? 5DPO

Today while I was sitting at my desk at work, I suddenly got a sharp pain on my lower back, the left side. It lasted about 2 hours on and off.  Not sure if it's implantation pain or if that is such a thing.  But I hope that the pain is a good thing.