My cervix is very high and very soft. The red bleeding I had first thing this morning that I assumed was my period. I have been to the washroom about 3 times since then (I put a pantiliner on when I noticed the bright red) and there was nothing but very very light brown discharge or CM. So I checked my cervix and it was hard to find it... it was so high and so soft. I have been doing so much research the past few weeks about cycles and ovulation and symptoms, and CM and CP and I think I finally came to the conclusion that every women is different. No 2 cycles or 2ww symptoms are the same. I read about 2 people having the exact same symptoms, and one is pregnant and one isn't.
I read about some people getting pregnant on their first cycle trying. I too was wishful thinking. And then there are couples who have been trying for 6 months, and 12 months, and 4 years. To go through 4 years of trying must be hard on people. But they still seem optimistic. This is my first time trying and part of me thinks that I screwed it up. I knew that sperm could only live for a few days but I thought hey it has happened before that got pregnant from 7 day old sperm. I dont know how people that have been TCC for over a year get through it. They must be strong people. I feel bad for them. Then again, if I got pregnant on my first cycle TTC, I would feel bad that it happened to me, and not to a couple who has been trying for so long :( I have wanted a baby for a few years, but knew that the timing was not good, but if we started to try a few years ago maybe I would be a mom by now. Wow I am very emotional today. Marc has been gone for 3 weeks now an I miss him so much.
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