EWCM Ovulating early??

Today, CD 13 I had some EWCM, which means im close to ovulating.  I was really hoping that I would ovulate later, to push my next period back a bit.  I hope that I dont start my next cycle early as well, as hubby is only due to come home 30 days from today.  And for the first time, my cervix was super low this morning.  It has been pretty high for the last 30 days or so.  Now I know the difference between high and low cervix.  It is getting easier to track my cycle now.

Blue veins are making me crazy & BFN

So I am CD 10 now, and the blue veins are increasing.  They now connect from my boobs to my armpit and all the way down my side and around under my belly/lower abdomen area.   And a few going from my boobs down the front of my belly.  Just a few on the front though.  The place where I have them the most is my lower back.  Clear as day all over the place on my lower back.  I am starting to wonder if this is a side effect of the prenatal vitamins?

Took a clear blue digital yesterday after work, since I almost through up at work, i was curious, and it said Non pregnant.  After taking so many a few weeks ago, you would think that I would be fine and used to it. But seeing the words "Non Pregnant" come up after a few minutes made my heart sink.

Babies all around!

Seems like every show I watch lately someone is trying to get pregnant, pregnant, or has a baby.  It's all around me!

Weight Loss

Well TTC cycle one ended with a BFN.  Cycle #2 is a break for us since DH is out of the country.  Since we are taking a break from TTC this cycle, I cant get my mind of baby stuff.  I am not pregnant yet when I was at Zellers the the other day I was looking at baby clothes.  They are all so cute.  I should start saving up now.  Anyways since school work is not keeping my mind of of babies, I need to do something.  So I decided to try a weight loss.  I currently weight 163 a of today.  I would love to lose 10 pounds before getting pregnant and putting it all back on, lol.  I use a website and iphone app called MyFitnessPal to track all of my food and calories and it is very simple to use.  You can scan bar codes and it puts it in your food diary.  It's pretty neat.  During the week, I play volleyball 2 nights a week and will be playing soccer soon 2 nights a week when volleyball stops.  There is also a workout Wii game that I love, it's called Gold's Gym Cardio Workout.  Its a boxing workout.  I love it, its a full body workout.  We also have a treadmill and cross trainer in our house so I really have no excuse not to work out, lol.  I am hoping to loose 5 pounds a month if I really stay focussed and watch my eating and continuing to workout.

So my question is, how much can I workout when I do become pregnant?  How much weight will I gain?  Should I try to loose more than 10 pounds?  So many questions, and so much research to do.  Ahh I'm back to baby mind again.  Everything I talk about leads to that.  6-7 more weeks until we can try again! :)

Happy Birthday to my Husband

Today is my hubby's birthday.  Wishing him a very happy Birthday!  Maybe next year we will be celebrating his birthday with a little baby :)

Such a weird Cycle!

For as long as I can remember, during my period I eat all day everyday during my period.  A big bag of multigrain tostitos chips and cranberry juice is what I always crave during my period.  Along with any other kind of junk food we have in the house.  I also live close to a convenience store, so treats are just a quick walk away.  But this time... not hungry at all.  I think that TTC and the stress of it has completely changed my normal cycles.  I usually gain a few pounds during my period due to eating alot of bad food and lack of energy to work out.  I should have started TTC a few years ago lol.  I am curious to see how the rest of this cycle goes.

As well, I started spotting Thursday night, but it only got heavier today, so I am using today as CD1, not sure if that is correct.

CD 1 - New Cycle

Finally had my normal heavy period today, been a few hours of it, so I know it's here now.  The days of the light spotting are over.  Having painful low cramps like I usually do during my period.  Happy that it's here now I know for sure I am not pregnant, and I can stop wondering everyday.  Taking a break this cycle, as my husband is not back until May 1.  Which actually works out perfectly.  My next cycle should be starting around April 21, and ovulation around May 6.  I have the preseed already and will be trying the SMEP as well.  Going to try to eat a little healthier the next month as well.

Every Women's Body is Different

My cervix is very high and very soft.  The red bleeding I had first thing this morning that I assumed was my period.  I have been to the washroom about 3 times since then (I put a pantiliner on when I noticed the bright red) and there was nothing but very very light brown discharge or CM.  So I checked my cervix and it was hard to find it... it was so high and so soft.  I have been doing so much research the past few weeks about cycles and ovulation and symptoms, and CM and CP and I think I finally came to the conclusion that every women is different.  No 2 cycles or 2ww symptoms are the same.  I read about 2 people having the exact same symptoms, and one is pregnant and one isn't.

 I read about some people getting pregnant on their first cycle trying.  I too was wishful thinking.  And then there are couples who have been trying for 6 months, and 12 months, and 4 years.  To go through 4 years of trying must be hard on people.  But they still seem optimistic.  This is my first time trying and part of me thinks that I screwed it up.  I knew that sperm could only live for a few days but I thought hey it has happened before that got pregnant from 7 day old sperm.  I dont know how people that have been TCC for over a year get through it.  They must be strong people.  I feel bad for them.  Then again, if I got pregnant on my first cycle TTC, I would feel bad that it happened to me, and not to a couple who has been trying for so long :(  I have wanted a baby for a few years, but knew that the timing was not good, but if we started to try a few years ago maybe I would be a mom by now.  Wow I am very emotional today.  Marc has been gone for 3 weeks now an I miss him so much.

The Witch is here

She showed up this morning :( Taking a break this month since DH won't be home until may 1. Going to be a long wait. Now I can get back to my school work and stop googling everything lol

More Veins

Started to notice a lot more veins on my body as well.  Lots on my lower back and back of my thighs.  A few on my hips still and pelvic area.  Same ones on chest area.

13 DPO - Brown spotting

Woke up this morning expecting to see AF... but nothing.  Nothing at all.  Took another IC HPT with FMU, negative, white as can be.  All day today I have been going pee about every 30-60 mins.  Not usual for me when at work. Around 10am, I noticed some light brown CM, not even that I needed a pad or pantiliner for, just when I wiped.  Had that a few times throughout the day, only a tiny bit each time.  After work I POAS, an OPK, and the test line was darker than yesterdays.  Not as dark as the control like, maybe half way there.  AF due in 2/3 days unless she is slowly hear now.  Still having cramps only on my left side.  I just wanna know already :(

Tried to buy the Monitor

Wow... 5 minutes after I posted that I was back on the site ready to order.  The thing that stopped me... $90 shipping to Canada!! Are they crazy!  Guess I will keep searching for one.

12 DPO - spotting?

My period isn't due for 3 or 4 days, and earlier today I was feeling wet down there (like AF showed without warning)... and nothing at all.  Tonight when I was checking my cervix, and it seems a little lower then before, and soft.  As well, I had a little bit of blood in my CM, kind of bright in colour.  Not sure if AF really is coming or now.  Usually I can tell when AF is coming, like the night before or even a few hours before.  But off and on this week I have been feeling like she is coming and still not here, even though she is not due for a few more days.  Ah! I dont know what to think anymore.

On another note, someone on BabyandBump posted a link for fetal heart rate monitors. Price range between $40-$100 for the monitor.  They can hear the rate rate as early as 8 weeks.  I had one selected and proceeded to the checkout, then decided I should wait until I get a BFP.  But I still really want to get one.  I will probably order it on the weekend anyways, lol.

11dpo early wake up

So I tried all night to hold my pee so that this morning I could poas, but no, went pee early. About an hour later I started to feel really hungry, my stomach was getting sore. I tried to just sleep thru it, but I couldn't so I went and gabbed a yogurt and went back to bed. 10 mins later... Still hungry. So I had a big glass of chocolate milk, and then couldn't get back to bed to I turned the iPad on and started googling hpt. I am trying to learn more about evap lines. And looking at very faint lines on hot to see if I see what other people see. Then I decided to come and here and do a quick post. So hubby has been gone now for 2.5 weeks. Time is going by fast. And my school work... Well that's starting to collect dust :( lol. I just want to know if I'm pregnant or not, is that too much to ask for? Lol. I still have another 2 hours until my alarm goes off, which is temp time, but I don't think I will record my temp on FF for today since I have been up and drinking. Guess I will go look at more hpt pictures. :)

9DPO - BFN

Took another hpt this morning and BFN.  After work (5pm) I used an opt and got a light line.  I know it means nothing, but I just like to see a line :) lol  Had some cramps today, just like what I get before the witch arrives.  She isn't due until another week, but I think she might be on her way early.  I dont know what to think anymore.

And... BabyandBump website is not working and I am going through withdrawals from that site lol.  I guess I could do some school work.

HCG test strip?

So when I took my hpt strip this morning, I put the opk strip next to it to see where the line should be.  There was no line that I could see, but then I put the tests on there sides just to see if I could see something and I noticed that there was a pink spot on the side of the test strip where the the should be.  Im pretty sure its negative because I couldn't see a line on the top of the test but could it be that the line is so faint??? I have been googling it like crazy, and cant find an answer anywhere.  If anyone is reading this has ever read or seen this, please let me know I am going crazy.

POAS

Ahhh!! It's only 2:30 pm and I want to go to bed so that I can wake up in the morning and POAS!  :)

7DPO - Hungry!

So I had 2 toast around 9am with peanut butter like I do every morning.  Then around 10:30 I started to get hungry again! like for another meal, not just a snack.  So I decided not to have anything else and wait until at least noon to eat lunch.  10 minutes later I found myself on the couch with a bag of Double Stuffed Golden Oreos.... yup eating them (only 4 though).  And I am still hungry.  I had ordered pizza last night, ate half the pizza last night and the rest was for today.  It is now almost 11am, and I am very close to eating the pizza.  I am trying not to because if I am not pregnant I have no excuse for eating so much and no excuse for my weight gain lol.

CD 7 CM

This morning I planned on using a hpt and opk with fmu, however when I woke up I had to pee so bad there was no time to get the test strips.  So I went back to bed, and decided to test in a few hours.   The hpt was negative.  Although when people post pics online of there test strips and others say they see a line... I never do.  But the opk, there was a line.  Not a clear positive opk, but the line was pretty clear.  I know that ovulated 7 days ago as per FF and temp rising.  As well, yesterday during the day I was feeling "wet" down there like AF was showing up, but there was only little bit of creamy cm.  When I went to the bathroom this morning, I had tons of creamy cm, like hand lotion.  One more dy down.

6DO - Tired

It is currently 6:30 pm Friday night, and I am so tired.  I am ready for bed.  Seems like I can't get enough sleep this week.  My lower back is stil sore.  I want to have a very hot bath, but I know its bad to do now (If I m pregnant).  I haven't been working out at all this week, only my 20 minute walk at lunch.  I am watching an episode of A Baby Story on TLC lol.  I'm addicted I have about 45 episodes saved on my PVR.  I set it to record all of the episodes.  After this episode I'm heading to bed unless I fall asleep on the couch, then I'm POAS in the am!! lol Ya, I know it's still early.  But I just cant help myself  :)

6DPO - Temp rise, stuffy nose

I have been pretty good at taking my temp first thing in the morning for the last week and a bit.  The last 3 days, my temp (after ovulation) has been exactly 98.0, this morning it was 98.5.  So of course I have been googling that lol.  Mixed opinions about it.  Still trying not to get my hopes up as we only BD'd 7-8 days before ovulation, but I cant help but think that I am that one in a million that will get pregnant with 7day old sperm.  I did take a hpt this morning (I know, I know... too early) BFN.  I just couldn't wait.  Oh and I used one last night too... shortly after I posted on here saying that I would wait lol.  I am going to run out of test strips soon lol.   Also today and yesterday I have had a runny nose.  The TWW is toooo slow.

Implantation Pain? 5DPO

Today while I was sitting at my desk at work, I suddenly got a sharp pain on my lower back, the left side. It lasted about 2 hours on and off.  Not sure if it's implantation pain or if that is such a thing.  But I hope that the pain is a good thing.

My Order Arrived!!

Finally, almost 2 weeks later, I got my order from Early Pregnancy online.  It was so hard not to POAS as soon as I walked in the front door and opened up the package.  I am going to wait until Saturday morning to start using the pregnancy ones.  I am so excited!  :)

SMEP?

I was just checking out some new threads on the BabyandBump site and noticed a conversation about "SMEP".  This is the first I have ever heard of this so I thought I would write it down as a reminder to try this plan in a few months when we TTC again.  Basically SMEP which stands for Sperm Meets Egg Plan.  Here is a quick breakdown of the plan:



- "Try" every other night starting Day 8 
- Buy 10 ovulation predictor kit sticks 
- Begin ovulation testing on Day 10 
- When test is positive, "try" that night, plus two additional nights in a row 
- Skip one night, then do one last "try" 
- Take a home pregnancy test 15 days after your ovulation test was positive, if your period has not begun 
- If your ovulation test never goes positive, continue "trying" every other night until Day 35, then do a pregnancy test if your period has not begun. 


Apparently it has good success rate for TTC after a miscarriage.  I have not had a miscarriage and neither have some of the people that were talking about it have.  But a few people are going to try it during the month of March, and I am curious to see if it works for them.  


I learn something new everyday and loving it.  :)

CD 21 - 4 DPO

Well not much happening today and yesterday.  I am very tired though, in bed by 9pm last night slept until 7am, and still quite tired.  So I caved and had a cup of coffee this morning.

Cd 20 - FF finally has O day CD 17

Looks like I am out this cycle :(  Woke up this morning and my temp increased again so FF gave an Ovulation day of Saturday March 3 (CD 17 which was 7 days after we BD).  Now I have 2 more months to track my cycle and get into shape as well as eat healthier before May when my hubby comes home and we will try again for a baby :)

CD 18 - New Blue Veins (not sure how many dpo)

I am now noticing some blue veins on my hip bone area, and over my pelvic area.  It could be nothing, but thought that I would post it anyways.  I really want to POAS!! lol

CD 18

Had some sharp pains on my lower left ovary area last night and again today off and on.  Same feeling as earlier this week I think.  The past 3-4 days I have been so tired, not sure if it is because I stopped drinking coffee for a week now.  I usually toss and turn when I sleep at night, but since I stopped drinking coffee I have been having a good solid sleep, but still tired when I get up.  Back is still sore as well, but my bobs are not sore at all.  Oh and I took a First Response hpt yesterday afternoon and it was negative :( but I know it's still early so I am going to wait until Friday to test again.

weird feeling in my stomach

So I forced myself to go back to bed, and for the next 3 hours, my stomach was so sore.  At first I thought I was hungry (at 4am??????) so I grabbed some crackers and water and went back to bed.  My stomach was still sore, and it was making weird noises, kind of like gas :S No matter what side I laid on, I was hurting.  I am going to try some organic tea now hopefully that will make my stomach better so I can try to take a nap later today.

CD17 - Up Early

It's 4:30 am (on a Saturday) and I am wide awake.  Last night I could not sleep on my back, my lower back hurts so much.  I am starting to notice that my stomach is hard now as well.  I am about 6 feet tall and 160 pounds, so I can usually poke the fat on my belly, but now when I poke it it seems hard.  I noticed this last night.  I am having so many mixed feelings about this week, my moods are up and down. I am so tempted to go and buy a hpt, but I know it is still early.  I will try to wait another week.  The test strips that I ordered online should be in this week.  I also did a little more research about the first opks that I bought and used, since I thought they were cheap ones.  Apparently the Life Brand opk that I bought are one of the most sensitive tests.  Not sure exactly what that means, if it can detect a positive early or if it has less chance of a false positive.  7 more days until I can poas :)

CD 16 and + OPK?

Today is CD 16 and the opk was positive, so fast and so dark!  I had a positive (I thought I did) on CD 8 then again on CD10.  Not sure how many days past ovulation I am, but I thought I was around 5 days.  Now I get a positive opk (negative the last 4 days), I am so confused, and sad.  If I do only ovulate tomorrow, then no chance this month for me to get pregnant, unless my husband has super sperm :) lol.  But I also googled it quickly, and some women had a positive opk about 6 days past ovulation, it then got a BFP.  Apparently the OPK can be used as an early pregnancy test, but dont want to get my hopes up.  I am guessing that I am POAS wrong or something, maybe wrong time of the day.  I also checked my cervix, and it think that it is closed and very high.  I guess it's time to do more research and make me go crazier :)

CD15

Yesterday I started to notice a few blue viens on my boobs, just a few.  I do not recall seing them before, but I could be wrong.  I checked with my husband and he thinks he has seen them before.  No sore nipples though.  As well yesterday I had an upset stomach all day.  Today I woke up (temp up to 97.4) and I have a stuffy nose, and when I cough my abs hurt.  I have not been working out just play volleyball twice a week and I never get sore from that.  This TWW period is taking so long, I just want to POAS now.